Friday, January 14, 2011

Seeing Dr. V.

I hate going to the doctor. Really, I do. It's not because I'm afraid of shots, or that I don't like their attitude, or don't approve of their poking and prodding. It's just that every time I go, something new is wrong with me. Do you know what that does to a persons psyche? For those of you who don't know, I'm diabetic.... VERY diabetic. My last A1C was 11.5. I'm taking my insulin, my pills, exercising... I just can't kick the sugar habit. I like carbs... a lot. In any form, really. Candy. Bread. Potatoes. Fruit. I can do good for a few days, but then I get mad because everyone else can enjoy potato soup, chocolate, etc, and I just can't seem to stop. It's so frustrating. So, even though there is no one out there reading this blog as often as I update it, I will pretend that there is, and will try to update on this site, my daily levels.... we'll see how that goes. Feel free to admonish me as needed :)


  1. is doing a sugar detox 8 week challenge. Sign up and they'll email you a sugar-cutting step each week... I'm doing it and it's really manageable!!


  2. I can relate, kinda. At age 45, it seemed like my body started falling apart and I couldn't take my health for granted anymore. For the last 10 years, every time I went to the DR was like, what else is going to show up. And I couldn't seem to fix any of it on my own, but no I don't want my gall bladder removed or my liver biopsied and I can't afford the non-generic prescriptions or the health insurance that won't cover a pre-existing condition anyway. Last year it came to a head when I felt so lousy, I went to the DR thinking I can't take the menopause any more and instead it was diabetes. For years I had been pre-diabetic but now my A1C was 13.5. Although my DR said I should go straight to insulin, she gave me 3 months to take charge. And I did it. My next A1C was 5.9. She said she has never seen this big of a turn around in this short of time. But I was scared and I wanted to be cured not just take a bunch of meds for the rest of my life. My partner is a type 1 diabetic and I see the long term effects of his struggle - eye surgeries, neuropathy, etc. I just don't want to go there.

    So I don't know if this will be any inspiration or not. I hate it that you are facing this so young, but its in our gene pool, honey. I know you take care of a lot of folks and its probably hard to find the time or routine to take care of yourself. Or indulge yourself. I decided to eat to live, and walk everyday - this was my time, treats for myself. Felt kind of selfish at first, but then I knew it was the responsible thing to do. And I feel SO much better, my AM & PM readings are right around 110 and I can have potato salad or a danish every now and then! And I eat super dark chocolate - the really good stuff cause it has so little suger in it. I used the book The Glycemic Load as my guide. Interestingly, I never felt deprived, I just had to change my habits, which was a challenge at first.

    So I'm thinking about you and hoping you find a way to get through this!

  3. Ummm... So where's your sugar levels for the last few days? I mean its the 19th for goodness sake! ; ) OK, that's me faking being tough, but I really do want to see 'em...
    Praying for the cravings to cease being cravings...

  4. LOL... thanks for asking Molly. I forgot to update it. Now it has yesterdays :) It's actually been kinda low, but that's probably b'c my insulin is super-mega-strong. Love you!